Today I
have all the claws out so beware…
Actually
it’s not that dangerous or serious but there are some things that really do
have a tendency of making me annoyed, and one of them is complacency and
another one is self-righteousness. I have both of these traits and I am fully
aware of them, at least I hope so…
As I for
the moment is somewhat incapable of moving around as much as I would like to, I
have fallen down into the very dark depths of Facebook and YouTube, not
something I am proud of but hey what can one do when you need something to
amuse yourself with.
YouTube is
totally fine but it is Facebook that is driving me nuts at some times, I don’t
have many friends nor do I wish for more, in real life it’s another question
however, but the dear hubby and I have had some serious convos about that, and
hopefully when I am fully restored to my former glory things are going to
change.
We actually
have had more conversations the last month than we have had in total during our
whole marriage, not because there has been nothing to talk about, but my hubby
is one of these gorgeous guys that instead of using pointless words actually do
things, so instead of using a lot of empty words that a lot of guys do, he make
sure to do things that he knows make me happy. And honestly I much rather
prefer a guy like that than one that just blabs about crap and then usually ends
up doing nothing.
But since
my mother died a lot of things have changed! Somehow the loss of her and the realization
that no one in my family gives a crap about me. It’s like I told my lovely
doctor the other day that if I suddenly would die then one of my siblings would
be here faster than light to lay hands on my bag collection and jewellery
because they would be such a lovely memory for her of me! Trust me the memories
would be sold faster than light to get some cash, fortunately the hubby has
been instructed that as soon as I’ve drawn my last breath those things will be
given to charity.
But returning
to the subject… There are a couple of people on Facebook that drives me nuts, I
don’t mind bragging, for heaven’s sake I’m the biggest one, but hopefully I do
it with a little more self-irony and humour and most of all gratefulness.
I have not
been this fortunate my whole life and I am enormously happy for what life has
given me, most of all a husband that adores me and would do anything for me.
Just knowing that is something worth far more than all the material stuff he
can and does give me!
Honestly how
could a bag or a bracelet beat the unconditional love from someone accepting me
in every way, even the bad ways? Trust
me I am as far from a nice person I can be in some cases. But I think as long
as I am aware about my shortcomings and occasionally say I’m sorry for being a
bitch I think it is okay, simply because my hubby knows that whatever happens I
will stand by his side and defend him until my last breath and even after that.
Wouldn’t that be a sight for eyes, a zombie bitch fighting for his husband!
But some of
these people don’t seem to understand that if you do the bragging route you
also have to do it carefully because otherwise you will come off as nothing
else but a simple braggart with no self-awareness and just come off as a very snotty
person, and actually just show how desperate you are for validation.
But on the
other hand sometimes I wonder if FB isn’t just actually all about validation,
just in different forms for different people
If I had
known this person just through FB I would simply just had put the Kardashian stamp on her, but as I have known her since "the good old" blogging days I
know that it’s mostly desperation behind all the showing off and linking to
certain sites. Hunger for fame can be hard and very tough to satisfy, and I’m
not so sure it will make you happy once you reach it…
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