When I decided to start blogging again it was with the goal to have the same style I had in the old one, funny, bitchy and a lot of self irony.
age and hopefully wisdom I have realized that you can not revive what once was.
I have a feeling this blog will be much darker and show much more of the
real me, well there was a lot of me in the older one as well but I didn’t show
all of me so to speak.
And like the famous water under the bridge some things
have gone and can not come back no matter how much I wish they could and
For the moment my life is quite dark and quite lonely to be honest!
And for the first time in many, many years I am almost totally knocked down. But
like the little cockroach I am I know I will survive this too even if it is
going to be very hard this time.
I think what is most disturbing is to
realize that people are far from what they claim to be. Sure we all have a
facade, but usually there is something else behind the it.
But when you
discover that there is only emptiness behind it, it is a little shattering but
mostly disappointing. It is not nice to realize that everything being said is
just fluff and doesn’t really mean anything. It is bit like the frosting on a
wedding cake, it looks good but taste like shit in reality and is only there to
cover a tasteless content.
It is funny how a death seven months ago can be so
eye opening and create so much ripples... I don’t know if I should be sad or
grateful for finally seeing the truth about some of the people I have around me.
I think I am going to chose grateful even if it hurts for the moment.
no idea if any of the people I am talking about is reading this, I doubt it
considering their English isn’t very good! And if they do I don’t care very
much, they have made their bed and I am making mine...
And as the self
promoting little bastard I am I leave you with this...